Daughter of Grace Author:Michael Phillips and Judith Pella The Journals of Corrie Belle Hollister — She is Learning to be a... — Daughter of Grace — When it comes to changes in our lives, I doubt anything could match the change in Pa! These last months with him had been wonderful. — Nothing could make up for Ma being gone, and I still missed her, but not as much as at first. In my head, I still missed Ma ... more »just as much as ever; I doubt I'll ever get over loving her till it hurts. But my heart was getting used to the idea of going on in life without her. I knew it was hard for the three younger kids not having a ma around the place. Pa wasn't a woman, and never could be. And though I did what I could, I was only their sister after all.
But Pa was real kind, even more so to the younger ones, I think, because he knew they needed mothering. I know he loved Ma, but now I think he missed her more for the kids' sake than his own, because he felt so helpless to give them all they needed. Mrs. Parrish would come out once a week or so, and I think she might have liked to help with the younger kids, but Pa seemed kind of reluctant - as though it was his duty to take care of his family and he didn't want help. He felt that he had to do more for us now on account of his being gone from us and leaving Ma alone for so long.« less