Wow, a very engaging poem! I like your use of contrasting imagery ("drunk with the softness", etc) makes for a very compelling presentation. Beautiful :)
I was near 20 when i first understood the pleasures of butch - The strong arms holding you down and up as she makes love to you, the truth: equal doesn't mean same, the soft, sweet eyes speaking to you of her heart's depth - and I was drunk with it. I was drunk with the pleasure of being on her arms, both figuratively and occasionally literally. Drunk with the knowledge that I'd crossed some invisible barrier inside myself, to allow myself the once-discarded pleasures of foundation, blush, powder, lipstick, silk, shaving, lace, satin, 4 inch platform sandals - and the ability to retain my lesbian identity in the face of all who scorn femme. Here with my baby, my boi, my Daddy, my butch, here in a word where I could pass unnoticed as Other, my love makes me visible. Visible - and endangered. I was 20 when I first understood the pleasures of butch, and only 24 when I understood the pain - and I was drunk with it. Drunk with the softness that covered the barriers that I couldn't cross. Body barriers belied the soul's walls - walls born of a heart broken once too often, the rules and limits and lies beaten into and out of her each day. Here with myself. My femme self. My alone, broken-hearted femme self, I retain my identity without a butch to support it. I was 20 when I learned the pleasures of butch. |
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