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The Eclectic Pen - on living in Toronto

By: Amanda R. (amandaripsam)   + 10 more  
Date Submitted: 6/15/2007
Genre: Biographies & Memoirs
Words: 810

  So living in Toronto, I learned alot. I learned alot about myself, and God, about people, about friends and relationships. I grew up quite a bit, grew out of the 20 going on 18 that was happening while I was living at my grand parents hanging out with mostly high schoolers(co workers who seem to be the only ones who had time for me), not that those people were bad people or anything, I just think that it was time for me to move on ya know? So, heres what i learned..

-Grand Rapids is WAY smaller than you may think.
-$40 every two weeks is more than enough to live off of, if you think you cant, then you're spending too much :)
-There are soo many more people to get to know, people say its a small world, which it is in regards to the way we are connected to people, but...there are SO many people out there with different views, ways of life, beliefs, I just wish I could get to know more of them.

now on to more serious things...Its amazing how the life experiences you have, can change the way you look at life. The little things people say here and there, the way people act, how you start to change to the people you hang around...... Some of those things just start to, little by little, change who you are, some for the better, some for the worse.

I just want to tell everyone that is from Toronto that ends up reading this, that ALL of you, every one of you, I would not exchange my experiences with you for anything, even if it was awkward, or difficult, you have given me memories and friendships that I will always remember, its all good.

-I hate that the good things in life can be used against us.
-I find it very unfortunate that relationships, going that extra step, can in the end, ruin friendships. How the connections that start to come together, hurt so bad when they are ripped apart. So many times do you hear about friendships that are close, get ruined when one of them begins to have stronger feelings. Why is it that when some people just want to get closer, things get torn apart? Something I'll find out when I'm old I hope :)
-Satan can use good things to pull you away from God.
-God can use bad experiences to bring you closer to Him and mature you're relationship with Him.
-Do NOT compromise your convictions.
-Go with your gut.
-There is a difference between tolerance and discernment.
-As Christians we're called to love people, that means helping them when they need help, not to judge, who are we to judge when we are all guilty of the same things. No one person is better than the other, sometimes we think, "well what they're doing isn't NEARLY as bad as what we are." NONE of us are righteous, no not one. romans 3:10. its just too bad that the people out there who do judge, end up pushing people away, when we should be bringing them closer. This is the hardest lesson I've learned.

I'm writing pretty scatter brained I think, but thats ok, its for me anyway :)

moving on...
If I didnt have God to turn to in rough times, I don't know what I would do. When things get pulled out from under you, where do you go? Do you go to your parents? I love my parents to death, but sometimes it just doesnt cut it?
my father disowend me when I moved and my mother and my realtioship is just starting out now that I am older.
Friends? They can only give you so much insight? And usually they too are far aways from where you are at in life to understand you fully. What happens when everyone around you isn't quite helping you dig up the peace you need? How can you handle that without knowing there is a God that is RIGHT there, helping you through it? going through a 9 months of misserable pregancy and not having my own family around me for support and having to depend on Adam family. I am SO glad that I know that no matter what happens, everything is in Gods plan. Everything that I've gone through/am going through, is making me the woman God wants me to be, for my hubby, my kids, my family, everybody.

-I wish that I could KNOW what I want, rather than LEARN what I don't want...follow me? Why must we go through hardships in order to learn whats best for us?

Everything is kind of random, but a lot of it are things that are heavy on my heart right now. I hope that you can take some of these things and keep them in your thoughts, hope it helps you grow while im growing. yeah...

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IONE L. (zaneygraylady) - 6/18/2007 7:14 PM ET
Sounds like you had a hard life but are quite reflective about it. Writing helps.
Amanda R. (amandaripsam) - 6/25/2007 5:33 AM ET
Oh honey you have no idea the life I lived and where I am at now. You would see two completely opposite people. Thanks, for commenting I enjoy reading your comments keep in touch.
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